Reminder.
Remind yourself of the strive and discipline you had:
Weather Swings.
“Mother Nature must be on on her period. Instead of mood swings, weather swings”
LMBO. for me it’s both. I love rain. I love it when it hits your face. It’s so refreshing. Real cleansing to the mind. I tend to get in a better mood when it rains.
However, Post-SAT week was not that relieving. Not sure why, still have SAT 2’s, APPS, SAT 1 retake (maybe) Eh… I should be more dedicated into focusing on my future goals/ studies. Anyways, It was a reallll mixed week. Buncha high’s & low’s. With these frustrations, I tend to let it out on something unrelated. bad tendency.
Mon-Wed: HORRIBLE.
I ride the bus often & walk home alone often. I study/eat alone at times too. It usually doesn’t bother me. But one day as I was walking home, I take my IPOD out & I realize there’s no one around me. It was just dark. Freak, I felt so lonely. I never feel like that. I’m usually more positive. Maybe. I should’ve realized God was there. Maybe I should start listening to Christian music on my walk.
Thurs-Sun: WONDERFUL.
Bonding with friends. Being the one taken care of for once. (Although, I usually hate the feeling of being treated like a kid). haha’ new memories made, and new laughs shared. Yells to smiles. Arguments to laughter. Beautiful transitions. It really got me to appreciate the friends God has given me. I’m really glad God allowed these people into my life.
Damn, I sound like such a moody chick. I’ll stop now.
Aquarius Woman(:
I know these are just for fun. & I’m not taking them too seriously.
However, I read mine. and it was kinda truee. Thought it was fun(:
Inconsistency and confusion describe the characteristics profile of an Aquarius female. The same goes for her love life too. She is very loyal, but at the same time, she is also a little detached and not extremely emotional. She will be committed and remain faithful too, but do not try to bind her. Let her enjoy her freedom and in return, she will come back to you when she gets tired of her expeditions. Her dreams are very different from that of a normal female and she hums a different tune, which most of us have not even heard of.
An Aquarian female is like a butterfly, which sits on every flower, but belongs to none. She loves her freedom and if you can accept this, she will love you even more. Within her boundless limits, her love will also be limitless. Position and power matter to her more than money and bank balance. If you want her to fall in love with you, be true and honest, not only to others, but also to yourself. You don’t need to follow her rules. You can form your own code of ethics, but be sure to live by them.
Passion is not one of the personality traits of Aquarian girl. Rather, her love will be subtle and unassuming. She is intense, but may prefer to be platonic most of the time. Hosting as well as attending parties comes naturally to her and she will always be a social delight. She will trust you completely and will not be unduly suspicious of your activities. You will also not be bothered by too much jealousy or possessiveness on her part. Her trust arises from the fact that before committing, she had dissected your behavior under a microscope.
Only after being convinced of your integrity did she take the next step. Still, if you become unfaithful to her, she will be extremely hurt and is likely to remember the wound for a long time. With an Aquarian female, out of sight means out of mind too. So, make sure to be around here always. She has a very strong will power. If she thinks the relationship is not working and has no chances of improving also, she will break it right away; though doing so may tear her heart into two pieces. Like every Aquarian, she will remember her first love throughout her life.
It’s no use getting upset, better be the first love in her life. She will never ever be dishonest in a relationship and even if she indulges in an extra-marital affair, it will end before it even started. She will always try to know your deepest thoughts and secrets, but her own dreams will be beyond your reach. Conversing with an Aquarian female is usually a delight because of her charming manners. Her mind is quite unpredictable and you will find it hard keeping track. She will live in the present, then suddenly be wistful about yesterday and then, become enthusiastic about tomorrow.
She may talk about fairies one day and discard elves as humbug, the other. Never look down on her or she might never look up to you. She respects you and will expect the same in return. As mothers, Aquarian women tend to be very loving and caring. Though in the beginning, they may be a little nervous about the whole idea of motherhood. But once they become comfortable with it, it will come to them naturally. An Aquarius female may find it difficult to express her love in the form of hugs and kisses and you will have to teach her that. She will never overburden the kids with protection.
At the same time, she will always be a patient listener to their childhood and adolescent problems. Teaching them discipline will also be your responsibility. However, for all this to happen you will have to convince her to get married and this certainly isn’t an easy job. You will also have to teach her romance, since expressing emotions does not come too easily to her. She will happily hold your hand and walk besides you, but don’t expect her to gaze into your eyes for hours at a stretch.
Don’t smother your Aquarian girl with too much closeness, she needs her space and will give you, yours too. Things like suspicion, possessiveness, chauvinism and criticism turn her off. Just be nice to her odd bunch of friends and she will warmly welcome yours into the house. Make use of her intuition and insight, it may help you in solving a problem or two. It may seem like wishful thinking now, but then, remember she looks in the future. Hold her hand and she will let you see the future too, where both of you are cozily living together!
Beauty Tips.
“For attractive lips,
Speak words of kindness
For lovely eyes,
Seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure,
Share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair,
Let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise,
Walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored,
Renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed;
Never throw anybody out.
The beauty of a woman is not in the
clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair
The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
the place where love resides.”
-Sam Levenson
Everyone always tells me, I think everyone is “pretty”. But honestly, I can’t call anyone ugly. There’s always something beautiful about them. The world tell us to think that beauty pertains to the superficial physical appearance. I want to be called beautiful because of my actions, my character, & my faith. True beauty is one that shines through God. It must be shown inside & out. I am a hypocrite, I don’t always follow those beauty tips and it’s true, I don’t feel that confident about myself most of the time. But when I see my friends, I’m always reminded of how pretty they are. I just wish they can see it too.
GIRLS, you guys all deserve a person that brings smiles to your face not tears in your eyes. You don’t have to please a guy in order for them to like you. A man who truly loves you will stand by you, and accept your flaws.We are all to accept our flaws, and help each other overcome them. Don’t put on a mask, be you. You don’t have to wear tons of make-up or wear skanky clothes to make guys notice you. It really pisses me off when a girl doesn’t acknowledge her self-worth. Have some dignity and pride. You don’t have to be dependent on someone for you to feel good about yourself. I’m not saying, you guys have to be pampered and have guys waiting on a leash. Be independent. Give them the same respect you deserve. Mutual understanding, and mutual respect is what will keep your relationship healthy.
GUYS, please. Don’t overload us with those shallow comments. Look beyond their appearance. It’s pride and insecurity that consumes girls. It may not show, but it’s not easy for us to shake off those comments. It may be a joke to you, but to some girls it’s a stab at their character. Help them realize that they’re God’s beautiful daughters. It’s not always “complimenting” to be called, “HOT” . Just say, “pretty” or “cute”. haha’ and you must really like her if you call her beautiful. Don’t worry, we won’t be hypocrites. You guys deserve to have girls who appreciate your affections and efforts. Vice versa. Not just for money, popularity, or pride but a girl that sincerely likes you for who you are. I know girls aren’t the only ones who face criticism as well. You guys don’t have to put on a show of looking “cool”. Don’t be afraid to show them your clumsiness or vulnerability. Girls feel trusted, and they can feel the same way towards you.
LMBO. wanted to take a little break from the letters, but f’reals. all of you, g’luck in the relationships you guys make.
Letter4
Dear Mom,
You are the greatest gift I’ve ever received from God. You are f’reals supermom & I don’t know where I’d be in life without you. You’ve always been working to support our family. Getting two breaks a month, working 12-14 hours a day. Mom, I apologize at the fact I’m such a disappointment. I should be appreciative and more motivated, but I’m failing you. You’ve never pressured me and you always trusted me. You didn’t have the time to worry too much about me. & I abused that trust. I can’t really say I tried my best at school or even tried my best taking care of Sharon… haha’ all our petty fights. Don’t mind them. I’m sorry I always have trouble waking up in the morning. You should’nt have to yell.. I love it when we have our mother/daughter talks. Drinking malkoli, eating sausage, talking about our day. I love it.
Mom, I’m sorry for all the crap you had to go through cuz of dad. When I think about the tears you’ve cried, the money he stole, or the hurt you had to go through.. It’s really hard for me to forgive him. It’s amazing how you keep striving to keep our family going. You really are the pillar of our family. I love how you always say, ” Don’t worry. Be happy” when things are rough. You truly are my hero. Faithful, strong, hard-working, persistent, ambitious, loving, tough. You’re a true model of what a woman of God should be. Don’t worry, Sharon and I will repay everything you”ve done for us. Just give us time. I pray that you remain healthy and strong. I know I don’t say it enough but I really love you.
Love,
큰 딸.
Dear Dad..
Honestly, I almost find it a blessing that you could’nt live with us anymore. It angers me about how you think I don’t know anything about the sh.t you did. Sharon doesn’t even know & she still talks about how much she misses you.. I haven’t seen you for four years now. I miss you…but I can’t really say I forgive you. Honestly, those few phone calls. No matter how much I try ignoring them, I pick them up anyway. I don’t even know what you look like now. It’s scary. There was a time where I couldn’t remember your face & just had to look at the picture. You used to be someone I could look up to… We spent all our childhood following you. Moving from place to place, always having to make new friends, get adapted to new schools. That was the price of being a PK. It discouraged me to see a man I used to look up to, fall. Mom supported you through all your crap and you never showed appreciation towards her. haha’ but you know what.. I still love you. I don’t know when I’ll meet you again, or if I could ever say that in person. so I’ll just say it in this letter. I know I shouldn’t be blaming you… God forgave me, and showed me mercy beyond my comprehension. but everytime I see mom’s face, I can’t say that I can. I’m sorry. but I do pray that you will be able to be a man that serves Him and his family.
- 주안.
Letter3
Dear Sharon,
I know I don’t show it, but I really do love you. Thank God He gave me a sister like you. You’re a real blessing. I’m really glad He brought you into my life. Mom always tells me how ecstatic I was when we were waiting for you to be born. haha’ guess what? we don’t get into as many arguments as other siblings do. It’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown, and how much you’ve matured. Your patience, your understanding, your warmth is very admirable. F’reals, you’re really mature for your age. I know I vent out my stress on you, & I might not be in the best mood @ home, but thanks for dealing with them. I know it drives you nuts too. haha’ any boy problems, prayer requests, stress relief. I’m here for you too.
I know it may seem like I’m being overly direct/critical but it’s all with good intentions. It’s discipline too. I challenge you cuz I know you can succeed and do it. Just trying to toughen you up a bit. People tell me I’m “too nice” but I think you are wayy wayy tooooo “nice”. I wish you were more outspoken about yourself. Say the stuff you need to say. It really bothers me when you don’t stand up for yourself sometimes. but if it’s stuff me/he/she/mom/whoever needs to hear, SAY IT. You’re independent yet dependent at the same time. I won’t always be there for you, there are things you have to learn to do on your own. haha’ but. you better be better at everything I did. You have me helping you.
I’m sorry at the fact, I’m not the best example. I wish I can be the exemplary role model you can look up to, anytime. but I’m not… F’reals. though’ you’re a kid thats beautiful inside & out. You’re talented, loving, motivated, family-oriented, etc. I LOVE YOU. Always remember that, even if it doesn’t seem like it. I really do. Good luckk your freshman year, and make the most of it! I won’t be here next yearrr. ;D
Love,
언이.
Letter2.
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Dear Future Crush,
I hope I don’t fall for you (too seriously) anytime soon. I know God has His own timing, but I know I need to focus on my other priorities atm. You must have good character because I usually like guys that do. Sorry, but I probably won’t initiate anything in the beginning. It’s the pride. I hate the feeling of making myself feel so vulnerable for no reason. So if I let you go, it’s my fault. Who knows, I fear that I’ll miss out on someone great because of my pride. I don’t want to act upon anything selfish, so if I’m liking you with the wrong intentions; hope that the Lord disciplines me. Right now, I can’t say I have a crush. I usually like someone or I don’t. I’ll probably start falling for you if you start opening up to me. Once you do, & I feel like we can both keep each other accountable, I’ll start liking you. But you probably wouldn’t know I did. I suck at showing it. Anyways, hope we’re able to make wonderful memories & even if we don’t work out, I know you’ll be a blessing for another girl.
- Esther
Tumblr Warm-Up.
I don’t think I can do this for more than a week. so here it goess
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Letter 1
Dear Best Friends,
Thank God I met you guys. If I haven’t wrote this quote to you already, here it is:
“Friends are like angels that lift us up when our wings have trouble flying”
I know I use that on cards, but hey. It really reminds me of how blessed I am. I love how comfortable I am with you guys, & I love the fact we can always keep each other accountable. I know this sounds corny, but since the day God allowed you guys to come in to my life, you guys left footprints in my heart. F’reals. I find you guys to be the greatest blessings. know I’m stubborn, prideful, hypocritical, direct, & close-minded (at times) I apologize for my flaws but I’m so glad you still deal with them.
The promises we’ve made, the tears we’ve cried, the prayers we prayed, and the memories we’ve kept are all things I will cherish for a lifetime. I want each one of you guys to know, you guys are irreplaceable & will always have a special place in my heart. (Haha’ you guys know I can be full of corn).
As an ENFP, it tells me I judge each one of your characters before establishing relationships with you guys. haha’ PRAISE THE LORD. I made certain judgements worthwhile. I LOVE YOU GUYSS. f’realsss.
